I apparently did it again: successfully scared everyone off xanga again. Well, don't worry folks. It was a short lived return. You are free to post as you like. I think I shall leave this site for good. I like my background and music enough that I won't delete it yet, but I won't be on as much anymore.

Just a final note sorta thing, if anyone is interested in supporting Tim, Chris, and myself for our Scotland trip, let me know! comment on here, mail me something, email me, w/e. I am excited to to return and I look forward to what God has planned. And I need to finish our support letters to hand out at church. haha.

Please support us with your prayers. If anyone is interested in praying for us for every day of the trip, I am hoping to set up a prayer base before we go. Or maybe I could have people sign up for a couple days until I have enough people to cover each day. That would be incredibly appreciated. I REALLY want the support of my peers and family as we go. Your prayers and encouragement actually mean a whole lot to me.

Love you guys, really.

Let me start of by saying: I'm not depressed. There can be bummers in my life, but I'm still doing ok. In fact, right now I'm doing rather good. I just feel like some days, I wish I didn't know anyone. period. Was subscribed to no one, had no friends, didn't come in contact with a living person except for those super friendly can't-go-wrong-with-this-person kind of people. =P

Honestly, people can be exasperating. And people -being the humans that they are- mess up and hurt themselves and hurt other people.... many of them do this on a regularly basis. I am the kind of person that doesn't take tons of things personally, but the things I do, I take very personally. Even when the person has no clue that they are hurting me, it's a very personal thing for me. Yeah, I'm struglling with someone in a similar way that I struggled with someone else once before. It just kinda hurts. But I know that alot of it has gone on because of areas where I have lacked. So I can't really complain too much. Besides, the other half of the reason why I'm typing this is becuase I'm just sick of the way alot of people react to things, interpret things, and deal with things. I don't want to be the very thing that annoys me. =) That would be silly, now wouldn't it?

I just had to sort of get that out there. I decided a while back, during some tough times, that if God took my friends and turned them against me, if God took my family away from me, if God never blessed me again - I would be ok with that. I would still love Him, serve Him, and praise Him with all I've got becuase He comes first to me. And y'know, He does still bless me. When I seek Him, serve Him, love Him, and be real with Him, He does cool stuff like answers my prayers, calms my nerves, gives me peace, or gives me unrest and motivation to do the right thing. He makes me strong even though I am utterly weak. He carries me. I have cool Savior that way. So even though there are some exasperating people and hurtful people in my life that I am powerless to change, I will seek God and trust that He made me the way I am and gave me the passions and personality and convictions that I have. I will stick by Him and put all in His hands. (He's more skilled with these things anyways. )

In other news, I need a Bible study topic for Tuesday. Any ideas? How do you "pick" a Bible study topic? Usually someone assigns one to me, but that doesn't work when you are the head of your ministry. haha.